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So, as I was saying…

I finally arrived in Sierra Madre on that rare day when you could see the mountains from the freeway–there was no visible smog. I got off at Baldwin Avenue and drive up into those foothills and felt a deep sense of… I think it was “home.” As usual (looking back) I had fallen into a GREAT place to live during those intense years of studying law. My roommate had graduated from SCALE and was the main reason I had realized that yes, I, too could go to law school, despite the unusual  undergrad degree I had from Goddard.

My half  of the rent was $50.00 a month–I had no idea until quite recently that this was NOT the going rate for the LA basin– I had just come from 6 years in the militarily in Mississippi and Guam. And the place was eccentric and charming–we had a GORGEOUS antique O’Keefe and Merrit stove and a tree growing up through our deck. 379 Sycamore. A great street in a magical little town. OK ,so Wayne was a ghastly roommate–left pots of food on the stove until they damn near got maggots, and had little quirks like that. He was, simply put–a PIG!  But I was so happy in my “genteel poverty” it didn’t faze me.

Someone asked yesterday “why law school? Why that law school?” Well, I will tell you. It felt right.  I had known for a long time I needed to do something with my life. Joining the military was my first step into adulthood. I did well on the language aptitude test and on the Officer’s Candidate School test, as well as on the LSAT. (Which I took with a nasty medical issue which was dealt with at MacDill AFB AFTER I finished the test!) But I decide on law school. Looking back I can think of various reasons this may have been important for me, but they were not reasons I had in mind when I made the call. It felt right. My interview had gone well and I had asked if they would admit me to SCALE. (Someone had told me if you asked they would tell you. I asked–they said “if everything you have told us is true, yes”. It was true– I am obsessed with truth.) I was in!

So I went. Why that law school? It felt right. Now I am getting pretty darn clear I had guidance of some sort, every step of the way. I was in many ways very confused, at least emotionally, but there was a part of me that KNEW… and I listened.

Thanks God for that. SCALE was far and away the most exciting experience I have ever had. I had no way to know I was avoiding the deliberate trauma and dehumanization inflicted on law students in “traditional” programs.

I was lucky. So lucky. NOW I know… I always have been.

  1. February 9, 2012 at 7:24 am

    Enjoyed getting to know you a little better. Now I’m curious about SCALE.

    • February 9, 2012 at 11:40 am

      Ahhh SCALE. I spelled out what the acronym means in an earlier post, but I will probably describe why it was rich and exciting–because it mad me very much NOT standard lawyer! I hope you will be on the edge of your seat!

  2. Lark
    February 9, 2012 at 9:25 pm

    Okay, now I know you operate out of intuition and heart. I look forward to reading more about SCALE and what it means to you, and I look forward to reading more about what your past means to you in retrospect and what the spirit that moved you in your choices has now taught you from your experiences–about yourself, the meaning of life, your place in the world, etc.

  3. February 10, 2012 at 3:21 am

    Yep I do– but I didn’t know it back then. I was often accused of being impulsive, of being stubborn… or I was simply stared at (as when I intuitively followed a lead in a case and trued it inside out and upside down TO OUR CLIENT’S benefit. Now I cm CLAIMING all these gits and skills–publicly..

    And, as you seem to understand, I am reclaiming the narrative of my life and my healing. Those who have invalidated me may have been acting from their own wounds–and of course they were–but the pain was very real. I may call them out here… I will go with my gut. I am dealing in TRUTH and not everyone can handle that. So be it.

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